Hopsin has done well in Colorado, playing to packed rooms in Denver and elsewhere for several years now. But something strange happened at his scheduled January 30 show at the Aggie Theater. He was supposed to play alongside Dizzy Wright, DJ Hoppa, and Black Pegasus. But, without explanation, he didn't. He just wasn't there.
He did issue an apology and a promise to make it up with a free show in the future. But thanks to a feature in our sister paper, LA Weekly, we now know exactly what happened that night.
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The anecdote appears at the very beginning of Rebecca Haithcoat's (excellent) story:
Hopsin ran away in January. Deeply depressed, he was on tour in Fort Collins, Colorado, when he decided he couldn't perform that night. Other rappers might booze it up, pop a Xanax or bed groupies to cope. But Hopsin doesn't drink, do drugs or cheat on his girlfriend. His only escape was to escape -- literally. So he removed his signature white, glow-in-the-dark contacts, tightened the strings around his black hoodie, switched off his phone and slipped out the back door of the venue.
"I pretended I wasn't Hopsin," the 29-year-old rapper says. "Something bad was going to happen at that show. I felt like I would've gone onstage and peed on all the fans or something."
She goes on to describe the reprieve he eventually felt:
Still, he couldn't force himself to turn around. He stumbled upon a house under construction, went in and laid down. Eventually he called a local friend, who picked him up and let him crash at his house, where they watched Finding Nemo. "I know I messed up," he says, adding that he plans to make amends by throwing a free show in Fort Collins. "[But] it was the only night I went to bed peacefully on that tour."
It's a great story; we advise you to read the whole thing. And you'll be glad to know that he's feeling stronger now. He's got a new relationship that's going well, and he's shaken off the depression he was feeling early this year. "I get it out in my music. I found my outlet," he told Haithcoat. "It makes my life better. I'm good."
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